I mean, like you really were alone in the world? I get that way sometimes.
Granted, I have suspicions that I'm actually bipolar, so that doesn't help me any.
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Yeah, something like that, but then this happens: http://forums.fanime.com/index.php/topic,9511.0.html
I just.... forget it.
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 10:53:16 PM
I just.... forget it.
It was meant to be a joke, bro. Yeah, yeah, I get alone. I'm going through a tough time with my parents' divorce right now and all. My mom's a spazz and I end up doing most of the chores around the house. She's a very weak woman, so I get irritated sometimes. I even question my love for her. What doe this have to do with the topic? Love. I question love now. I used to be very firm on the family unit. I thought that in a world of no absolutes, at least the family unit was there for you, but... not so much. I'm looking forward to college to break away from this so called "family" and hopefully meet someone to take away my loneliness. I'm not exactly suffering from it, but... I do miss the old feeling. I'm not the type to rekindle old flames, but I can't help but thing how things could have gone with my ex. Wonder how she's doing nowadays.
Blegh.
Alone for now, Amon, but not forever. Just improve yourself and find something else to do. Read a good book. Sing to a tune you love. Learn how to cook! Improve, brother!
Quote from: Makou on April 28, 2008, 10:59:18 PM
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 10:53:16 PM
I just.... forget it.
It was meant to be a joke, bro. Yeah, yeah, I get alone. I'm going through a tough time with my parents' divorce right now and all. My mom's a spazz and I end up doing most of the chores around the house. She's a very weak woman, so I get irritated sometimes. I even question my love for her. What doe this have to do with the topic? Love. I question love now. I used to be very firm on the family unit. I thought that in a world of no absolutes, at least the family unit was there for you, but... not so much. I'm looking forward to college to break away from this so called "family" and hopefully meet someone to take away my loneliness. I'm not exactly suffering from it, but... I do miss the old feeling. I'm not the type to rekindle old flames, but I can't help but thing how things could have gone with my ex. Wonder how she's doing nowadays.
Blegh.
Alone for now, Amon, but not forever. Just improve yourself and find something else to do. Read a good book. Sing to a tune you love. Learn how to cook! Improve, brother!
Problem is, I'm only good at one thing, and I've reached a point where I just seem stuck in said talent, like I can't make it go further.
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 11:43:19 PM
Problem is, I'm only good at one thing, and I've reached a point where I just seem stuck in said talent, like I can't make it go further.
What would that one thing be?
then try to learn something new, wean off that old talent and open your eyes dude the world is a big place and you arent really alone. Try to go out and have fun with friends or make some!
Makou: :V you would make the perfect wife for me!
Quote from: Makou on April 28, 2008, 11:53:13 PM
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 11:43:19 PM
Problem is, I'm only good at one thing, and I've reached a point where I just seem stuck in said talent, like I can't make it go further.
What would that one thing be?
Writing. I've hit a horrific case of writer's block when I seemed to finally find someone willing to publish me.
Odds are, given my bipolar issues, I'll swing right back around tomorrow. But right now it just freaking sucks.
Kazuko: I don't want to wean off it. It's something I deeply love.
Life throws you a lot of snowballs, shit, and various other objects to the face. A lot of times it's a simple matter of taking it like a man, picking yourself up, and running over to life to kick it in the face.
Simply wondering what could of been, instead of doing something about it is often the wrong approach. You don't get a job offer out of nowhere, you have to go out and apply yourself. Universities (rarely) go out and find people to bring to their school. You have to go apply, do a lot of stuff to make you stand out in the crowd. Life is the same way. You make yourself better by going out there and trying new things, accepting that failure is a part of the learning process.
People these days, at least to me, are so afraid of failure. Failure is a big part of life, whether in business, school, love, life, etc. Shit happens all the time beyond your control, it's how you deal with the consequences and aftermath that determines what kind of person you are.
One of my favorite quotes in business is, "Leaders are born, not made...however Managers are trained and mass produced". Doesn't really fit what i'm saying without some explanation. Leaders are born with the nature to question. You question the status quo, you see beyond the box, you look beyond the scope of what is and simply try to change it to what it could be. Managers maintain the status quo, Leaders rise above and create something. Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Warren Buffet all are examples of how they took charge of what they wanted to do, failed along the way, but learned from their mistakes to be extremely successful in life.
You live by the status quo or you kick it in the face. Up to you.
-Steve
Quote from: Steve.Young on April 29, 2008, 12:01:03 AM
Life throws you a lot of snowballs, shit, and various other objects to the face. A lot of times it's a simple matter of taking it like a man, picking yourself up, and running over to life to kick it in the face.
Simply wondering what could of been, instead of doing something about it is often the wrong approach. You don't get a job offer out of nowhere, you have to go out and apply yourself. Universities (rarely) go out and find people to bring to their school. You have to go apply, do a lot of stuff to make you stand out in the crowd. Life is the same way. You make yourself better by going out there and trying new things, accepting that failure is a part of the learning process.
People these days, at least to me, are so afraid of failure. Failure is a big part of life, whether in business, school, love, life, etc. Shit happens all the time beyond your control, it's how you deal with the consequences and aftermath that determines what kind of person you are.
One of my favorite quotes in business is, "Leaders are born, not made...however Managers are trained and mass produced". Doesn't really fit what i'm saying without some explanation. Leaders are born with the nature to question. You question the status quo, you see beyond the box, you look beyond the scope of what is and simply try to change it to what it could be. Managers maintain the status quo, Leaders rise above and create something. Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Warren Buffet all are examples of how they took charge of what they wanted to do, failed along the way, but learned from their mistakes to be extremely successful in life.
You live by the status quo or you kick it in the face. Up to you.
-Steve
I'm not afraid of failure. I just really hate when my brain seems to grind to a halt when I want to write more.
Awwww... how sad.
-_-
And this is my point. You went off on this huge tyraid about how you think you're better than me, glad you're not me, etc. etc. etc. and then make a thread about how alone and sad you are.
Yet, you never see me make threads like this, especially to random strangers that I don't know.
Why do you think this is?
How are you going to take this post? As another attack on you, because obviously that's all I can do right? Nothing I say has any merit because it's just attacking you, right?
The basis of feeling alone is the basis that, you feel no one else understands you(pssst they do usually), and that you think you cannot get along with others. The usual reasons being, your own self-esteem issues. You don't feel like you add up therefore, you think others will look down upon you, because they don't understand you.
And how do we deal with this? Most people bitch and whine, and attack others in the sense that they have something to prove. Mostly towards themselves. Then they relook at themselves afterwards and realize how crappilly pathetic they are(or think they are).
Most people feel alone at one point. But then they realize they have people that care about them. Great friends, family, and other people. I don't have self-esteem issues, because after years of self-evaluation, I realized I was better than the majority of the dumbasses out there because I could think and act for myself. I wasn't a fake little parrot like the majority of people, that will talk shit about everyone behind their backs. I became honest with myself and the world, and I have the most amazing people supporting me. The amount of friends I have, just sheer number is huge... but I have 6 amazing friends that have been in my life, and I now have a pretty awesome girlfriend.
So no, I never feel just really alone anymore. Because I know who I am, and I know where I stand in life. I know my capabilities, I know what I can't do, and I know where everyone else stands.
But dude, I like talking shit about some people behind their backs...
It's a good conversation piece.
Plus, they certainly bring it upon themselves with their stupidity.
Edit: Gah typos. Midnight = fail.
Quote from: PyronIkari on April 29, 2008, 12:04:45 AM
Awwww... how sad.
-_-
And this is my point. You went off on this huge tyraid about how you think you're better than me, glad you're not me, etc. etc. etc. and then make a thread about how alone and sad you are.
Yet, you never see me make threads like this, especially to random strangers that I don't know.
Why do you think this is?
How are you going to take this post? As another attack on you, because obviously that's all I can do right? Nothing I say has any merit because it's just attacking you, right?
The basis of feeling alone is the basis that, you feel no one else understands you(pssst they do usually), and that you think you cannot get along with others. The usual reasons being, your own self-esteem issues. You don't feel like you add up therefore, you think others will look down upon you, because they don't understand you.
And how do we deal with this? Most people bitch and whine, and attack others in the sense that they have something to prove. Mostly towards themselves. Then they relook at themselves afterwards and realize how crappilly pathetic they are(or think they are).
Most people feel alone at one point. But then they realize they have people that care about them. Great friends, family, and other people. I don't have self-esteem issues, because after years of self-evaluation, I realized I was better than the majority of the dumbasses out there because I could think and act for myself. I wasn't a fake little parrot like the majority of people, that will talk shit about everyone behind their backs. I became honest with myself and the world, and I have the most amazing people supporting me. The amount of friends I have, just sheer number is huge... but I have 6 amazing friends that have been in my life, and I now have a pretty awesome girlfriend.
So no, I never feel just really alone anymore. Because I know who I am, and I know where I stand in life. I know my capabilities, I know what I can't do, and I know where everyone else stands.
Considering I started off this thread admitting my suspicions about being bipolar (given how my posts swing in mood), I don't see why we have to rehash our little issue with each other Pyron.
I could disregard everything you say as another attack, given how I know you think so damned little of me anytime I decide to open up about my anxieties or whatnot. But instead, I'm just going to ignore your antagonistic comments and focus on the point you're trying to make.
While I do appreciate the friends I have, and the support they constantly give me, the fact that I feel left behind as they continue to progress after their dreams while mine keeps stalling due to writer's block.
I swear, if my ideas poured out onto the page as often as I wanted, I'd have written a novel worth shopping around agents by now. Instead, I find myself staring a screen for hours before I realize I just have no clue how to paint the scene in my head yet.
Instead, I feel... left behind. Yeah, said that already. Yeah...
Dear God, I'm actually having a rapport with PyronIkari. Didn't see that coming.
Stranger shit has happened before.
Like me actually paying attention to people @ work. Hah.
I admit to understanding how it feels to feel alone and inadequate. My advice is to find traits that you do like about yourself, and try to feel confident in those things. Eventually, you believe in yourself a little more and your self-esteem will improve. As for flaws and bad qualities, take it as something to improve on. That's about it, really. Telling you is easy, but it's up to you to make use of it.
I realize you can't really force these things, though. Just keep trying to have an understanding of it and it'll come to you sooner or later.
Quote from: Jun-Watarase on April 29, 2008, 12:33:03 AM
I admit to understanding how it feels to feel alone and inadequate. My advice is to find traits that you do like about yourself, and try to feel confident in those things. Eventually, you believe in yourself a little more and your self-esteem will improve. As for flaws and bad qualities, take it as something to improve on. That's about it, really. Telling you is easy, but it's up to you to make use of it.
I realize you can't really force these things, though. Just keep trying to have an understanding of it and it'll come to you sooner or later.
That's usually how I end up feeling better. But like I said, I suspect that I may actually be bipolar (the only logical explanation, because I keep flipping between enjoying being me and just not).
I suspect that somehow I'll be feeling much better tomorrow and probably churn out chapter after chapter. But right now, it just really really sucks.
i feel isolated in the sense that i feel that we are living in a neofeudalist society, and that if i wish to at some point drop everything to do what i want i have to join the enforcer class in order to buy my freedom through service.
i feel isolated in that most women will judge me by the shoes and pants that i wear, the way I wear my hair, the car i drive, my job, and how much money i have in the bank the way some piggish men would judge a woman by her breasts, hips and hair, and that im not rushing to get that so i can get a woman with barbie doll hair and barbie doll lips, fresh from the jar of hitler's brain in a store room in the subterranean fortress beneath disneyland.
i feel isolated in that it seems as though there are very few people as pissed of as i am that NO ONE seems to care that this is the world that we live in, where we are judged by what we own rather then the content of our character.
i feel isolated in that i realize that i live in a world full of hypocrites and pimps and cowards, and that the world is geared to help them, and where all good men who stand against the tyranny of the wicked and the inequities of the weak are trampled down.
i feel most isolated when i think of the future, when i have a son, and i have to tell him that he has to make a choice between maintaining character, virtue, honor and self and any sense of normalcy since apparently the aforementioned don't actually exist.
and that few people see it the way i do.
and that even less think that there is anything that can be done to change it.
See, I agree with you.
But I do think that to change the world, you would need to change hearts of millions upon millions of people. You have to make them believe...and in this day and age, the media and our politicians have made it so that the people no longer believe.
They believe lies and corruption, they believe the meaningless spoon fed information that is presented to them.
Plato's Allegory of the Cave, the truth hurts therefor we do not want to see. So we are content in allowing the illusions and shadows consume us.
the system that is in place will take more then a lifetime to change.
it will be a generational struggle. somehow i am to impart and impress upon my children the necessity to maintain identity separate from material possession and self objectification, be it in the marxist or feminist theory sense, and then hope that they continue down the line.
and THEN i have to hope that others do the same, and over centuries, the world will change to what i think it should be.
but i wont live to see it.
everyday there are people around me, oblivious to the truth and who want to keep it that way - willing slaves, people without the will to raise an eyebrow and stop grazing at the mall like cows.
im hoping to become a lawyer someday - ie, entering the bushi-class and serving some daimyo in the hopes of acquiring a small lordship of my own so i might be able to be free someday to do what i wish when i wish - true freedom.
it drives me to drinking. because when i drink i dont think about things as much. and its then that i understand the cows that people have become - because a stupid person cannot see the chain around their neck, or as you say, the truth in the allegory of the cave. and its tough. its really, really tough.
About your mental state, I have autism. I tell myself that I'M GONNA KICK SOME ASS everyday. Even though I left behind my close friends and my girlfriend when I moved in SF but I still keep in touch wit them strongly and I don't feel alone. About the Self-Esteem problem, QUIT CRYING!
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 29, 2008, 12:00:01 AM
Odds are, given my bipolar issues, I'll swing right back around tomorrow.
DO NOT EVEN GO THERE.
Just because you think that your life sucks one day and think that saying that they day before was a stupid idea DOES NOT CONSTITUTE being bipolar.
Bipolar, even on rapid cycles, goes on from month to month. A one day MOODSWING does not even go into ANYTHING like it. The depression of bipolar will mean your mind will not let your body move FOR FREAKEN DAYS. The mania will keep you moving and twitching for days without the capability of sleep.
A passing thought of aloneless or "Oh I'm so unhappy I could just sit here and slit my wrists" and then the next day be fine about it IS NOT BIPOLAR.
Get off your dramatic ass and stop blaming something THAT ISN'T CAUSING YOUR PROBLEMS. I hate you people that give Bipolar a bad name.
You think your bipolar? Go to therapy for 6 months and be on constant medication for 2 years and then we'll talk.
Aha, oh man. Didn't even catch that. People who are manic depressive and have had loved ones in manic depression would slap you.
People tend to abuse and assume they have some sort of mental disorder when they're unhappy with something. Asperger's is thrown around almost just as much. Never unprofessionally evaluate yourself in terms of psychology. Not for you, or for anyone else. There could be suspicions, but never conclude it as an actual diagnosis. That's just idiotic.
I have both been a manic depressive (bipolar disorder) and have an array of anxiety disorders. It varies between people, but I'll let you know the gist of what actually being bipolar is like, along what LadyKaren has mentioned.
Basically, you feel depressed-- you either don't know reason why or dwell on things for a very long time, no matter how big or small the cause may be. You don't feel the will to do anything anymore, and yet you still feel useless for not doing the things you can't push yourself to do. You feel lonely, and yet, despite that you don't want to actively go outside and socialize with anyone. You either get too much sleep from not wanting to do anything, or have insane insomnia that keeps you from having much sleep at all. In most cases, despite being awake, you won't feel as if you have anything to be awake for. You won't have an appetite, you won't even want to move at times. You might want to just have someone be there for you, but you won't reach out to talk to anyone. You can't help these things, and it gets frustrating-- and despite all this, you can't push yourself to actively do anything about it. It's even worse when you begin to blame yourself and start feeling as if it's your fault, and even though you can't really help your mental condition, it pretty much is. The feeling lasts from days to months at a time, and mood swings go on and off spontaneously.
It's the feeling of being alive without having any reason to be alive for. Just consciously sitting there with nothing to do. It's like that feeling when you're bored but am too lazy to find something to do, only 10x worse. And being frustrated by it.
Medications don't help you feel better. They just prevent your body to chemically produce the feeling of being depressed as often or as strongly. It doesn't actually make it easier to be happy about things, it just makes you feel less. But when the person's life conditions change, medication becomes less and less necessarily and they might overcome most of the disorder's effects completely-- but again, that's dependent on their own condition. MY case isn't as bad as what it had used to be, so medication isn't necessary anymore.
But uh, honestly, it varies between people. I know that many who claim to be manic depressive reads these sort of descriptions and start thinking "Hey! That's exactly how -I- am! I must be manic depressive!" It really doesn't work that way. Most of those people are just emo whiny retards.
You also have to realize though, some of your own personal qualities reflect as what kind of person you are. People will judge from that and decide whether or not to like you. We've all witnessed some pretty ridiculous self-esteem issues from what you've shown people on this forum, so improving on that would improve your own self-image and confidence, then people would start liking you. With all the bad qualities, you try your best to fix and improve them. For all good qualities, take pride in them and build upon them.
im not going to over analyze, but at the moment i live alone, but not by choice mind you.
everyone may feel alone, but the bottom line is to do something about it.
nowadays, people are so reliant on others that they really should just ACT on their own to change things.
sure some aspects are out of your control (mental, physical or natural ailments that occur) but u shouldnt use them as an excuse and give up.
I'm really appreciative of my friends and family, or i find myself disctracted easily by things that i do to enjoy the time that i have.
you welcome to sit, pout and be emo. but sometimes you just get off you ass and do something with your life.
I hate to use a disney phrase- but.
Hakuna matata. = No worries ? ( i forget, but yah whatever :P)
and just try to do something positive or constructive with your life.
K, sorry to use the term "bipolar". I just have no clue why it's easy for me to slip back and forth between being depressed and being not-depressed, and I try to see logic in my slips.
Oh, but LadyKaren, my girlfriend (current) basically tells me I'm not bipolar, but defines it as mood swings that switch back and forth by minutes, based on co-workers of hers that are diagnosed as bipolar.
So, can someone clarify for me just how long mood shifts are to be considered bipolar? Because now I'm just confused.
And Jun, I never denied I have self-esteem issues. I just don't like that everyone seems to write me off the instant I talk about it.
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 29, 2008, 02:30:18 PM
K, sorry to use the term "bipolar". I just have no clue why it's easy for me to slip back and forth between being depressed and being not-depressed, and I try to see logic in my slips.
Oh, but LadyKaren, my girlfriend (current) basically tells me I'm not bipolar, but defines it as mood swings that switch back and forth by minutes, based on co-workers of hers that are diagnosed as bipolar.
So, can someone clarify for me just how long mood shifts are to be considered bipolar? Because now I'm just confused.
And Jun, I never denied I have self-esteem issues. I just don't like that everyone seems to write me off the instant I talk about it.
Mood swings vary. They're commonly regarded as quick, spontaneous swings without warning-- but uh, this isn't always the case. They can last for months at a time of boundless depression and lethargy.
Anywho, as for people writing you off the instant you talk about it, that's just BS. If you take a look at your thread on avoiding people, people tried to accept you and spent the time to help you with your problem, and despite you deciding to go in the end, you ended up slapping the hands of everyone that tried to reach out to you. When people forgave you for that, you just always manage to pull another stunt to make yourself look pitiful. That's as blunt as I can really put it without going into excruciating detail. :U
But uh, you feeling as if you slip back and forth between depression and being content, that's because you have emotion. Depending on the circumstances, different emotions arise to react to your environment. :U
So if the circumstances grant you feeling depressed, then being okay with things later, that's just how things are and your emotions are reacting to it. Whether or not you deal with it or try to control it is entirely up to you.
Quote from: Jun-Watarase on April 29, 2008, 03:06:47 PM
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 29, 2008, 02:30:18 PM
K, sorry to use the term "bipolar". I just have no clue why it's easy for me to slip back and forth between being depressed and being not-depressed, and I try to see logic in my slips.
Oh, but LadyKaren, my girlfriend (current) basically tells me I'm not bipolar, but defines it as mood swings that switch back and forth by minutes, based on co-workers of hers that are diagnosed as bipolar.
So, can someone clarify for me just how long mood shifts are to be considered bipolar? Because now I'm just confused.
And Jun, I never denied I have self-esteem issues. I just don't like that everyone seems to write me off the instant I talk about it.
Mood swings vary. They're commonly regarded as quick, spontaneous swings without warning-- but uh, this isn't always the case. They can last for months at a time of boundless depression and lethargy.
Anywho, as for people writing you off the instant you talk about it, that's just BS. If you take a look at your thread on avoiding people, people tried to accept you and spent the time to help you with your problem, and despite you deciding to go in the end, you ended up slapping the hands of everyone that tried to reach out to you. When people forgave you for that, you just always manage to pull another stunt to make yourself look pitiful. That's as blunt as I can really put it without going into excruciating detail. :U
But uh, you feeling as if you slip back and forth between depression and being content, that's because you have emotion. Depending on the circumstances, different emotions arise to react to your environment. :U
So if the circumstances grant you feeling depressed, then being okay with things later, that's just how things are and your emotions are reacting to it. Whether or not you deal with it or try to control it is entirely up to you.
The thing about that earlier thread is when I already said I was going, and I still saw posts calling me a punk for deciding not to go, it just annoyed me that no one seemed to notice I already made the better choice. The rest of the neurotic behavior just stemmed from someone in said clique from said post joining in discussion, because the last thing I need is the problem which I can just ignore and thus enjoy the con becoming a problem barreling straight at me.
As for the comments about worse con (that's what you're talking about, I assume), I was just being honest about my worse con experience. That's all.
Thanks for the time though.
www.bipolar.com
Amazing what you find on the internets. They actually have a website explaining these things. Who would have thought you could actually learn things on the internet?
whoa whoa whoa!
Aren't you really happy right now? I just read your topic about you got engaged? Well I just like say good job.
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 09:48:10 PM
I mean, like you really were alone in the world?
I always feel like that...
Quote from: OniCourseMusha on April 29, 2008, 07:39:24 PM
whoa whoa whoa!
Aren't you really happy right now? I just read your topic about you got engaged? Well I just like say good job.
Yeah, I started this topic yesterday during a really depressed point. Today, I posted the other one.
So yeah, it's very random timing with both.
Quote from: JohnnyAR on April 29, 2008, 07:49:48 PM
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 09:48:10 PM
I mean, like you really were alone in the world?
I always feel like that...
Me too. Then I call one of my friends, we go hang out and it's all good. XP
Quote from: Yuu on April 29, 2008, 08:04:27 PM
Quote from: JohnnyAR on April 29, 2008, 07:49:48 PM
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 28, 2008, 09:48:10 PM
I mean, like you really were alone in the world?
I always feel like that...
Me too. Then I call one of my friends, we go hang out and it's all good. XP
Well my friends are almost never available
Okay, this is where I go in to it.
You're getting engaged... and a day prior you're whining like a little brat in this forum about "feeling alone"? Add that together with the majority of your other posts. Frankly, you can't even take care of yourself, you have a horrible mind set, and you think getting engaged is a good idea? Why do kids today think jumping into relationships, taking on serious commitments and the such are some how good ideas.
Congratulations, I think you've made an idiotic decision, but hey, whatever... it's your life.
WTF amon's getting engaged? there is no god.
Nope. I'm never felt alone. XP
Other things maybe but not alone.
Quote from: LadyKaren on April 29, 2008, 03:59:23 AM
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 29, 2008, 12:00:01 AM
Odds are, given my bipolar issues, I'll swing right back around tomorrow.
DO NOT EVEN GO THERE.
Just because you think that your life sucks one day and think that saying that they day before was a stupid idea DOES NOT CONSTITUTE being bipolar.
Bipolar, even on rapid cycles, goes on from month to month. A one day MOODSWING does not even go into ANYTHING like it. The depression of bipolar will mean your mind will not let your body move FOR FREAKEN DAYS. The mania will keep you moving and twitching for days without the capability of sleep.
A passing thought of aloneless or "Oh I'm so unhappy I could just sit here and slit my wrists" and then the next day be fine about it IS NOT BIPOLAR.
Get off your dramatic ass and stop blaming something THAT ISN'T CAUSING YOUR PROBLEMS. I hate you people that give Bipolar a bad name.
You think your bipolar? Go to therapy for 6 months and be on constant medication for 2 years and then we'll talk.
~applauds~
But its easy not to understand what exactly constitutes being bipolar. Most don't know how extensively the mood swings are. I will honestly say that I have suspected myself as well... cause occasionally I would get depressed for no reason what so ever or have fits of paranoia late at night just because I happened to see a spider crawl on the wall. Its sometimes hard to know what may be one thing from another somewhat similar thing.
Quote from: PyronIkari on April 29, 2008, 08:21:25 PM
Okay, this is where I go in to it.
You're getting engaged... and a day prior you're whining like a little brat in this forum about "feeling alone"? Add that together with the majority of your other posts. Frankly, you can't even take care of yourself, you have a horrible mind set, and you think getting engaged is a good idea? Why do kids today think jumping into relationships, taking on serious commitments and the such are some how good ideas.
Congratulations, I think you've made an idiotic decision, but hey, whatever... it's your life.
Well, as I've stated, my posts don't give you a full understanding of my character or mindset. And I thought we actually made some kind of connection when I decided to just talk about things instead of turning it into a flame war (As I stated before, you really can't resist flaming people, can you?).
Besides, I'm far more than capable at taking care of more than other people, because I'm never failed to step up when I committed to something.
And for God's sake, I'm no kid. Stop basing your ideas on me from a few posts when I feel like complaining. Grow up.
Quote from: Amon_Devilman on April 29, 2008, 09:45:43 PM
Quote from: PyronIkari on April 29, 2008, 08:21:25 PM
Okay, this is where I go in to it.
You're getting engaged... and a day prior you're whining like a little brat in this forum about "feeling alone"? Add that together with the majority of your other posts. Frankly, you can't even take care of yourself, you have a horrible mind set, and you think getting engaged is a good idea? Why do kids today think jumping into relationships, taking on serious commitments and the such are some how good ideas.
Congratulations, I think you've made an idiotic decision, but hey, whatever... it's your life.
Well, as I've stated, my posts don't give you a full understanding of my character or mindset. And I thought we actually made some kind of connection when I decided to just talk about things instead of turning it into a flame war (As I stated before, you really can't resist flaming people, can you?).
Besides, I'm far more than capable at taking care of more than other people, because I'm never failed to step up when I committed to something.
And for God's sake, I'm no kid. Stop basing your ideas on me from a few posts when I feel like complaining. Grow up.
QuoteListen. You don't like me, I'm not too fond of you, but if you can, please leave my engagement out of your flames. Thank you.
You don't get it... do you? This isn't flaming you stupid twit. Yes, you're right, your posts are not a full understanding of your character... BUT THEY ARE A PART OF YOUR CHARACTER. A very apparent part. You show much of part of your personality, and that part alone is a big factor in all this. Hell, frankly, if you have a successful relationship, a successful life, all the more power to you, but based on what you've displayed, you're a damned fool. A damned fool jumping into something stupidly and your replies back to me just push the idea. Instead of acknowledging anything you just get bitchy and defensive with your whole "YOU DON'T KNOW ME, I AM NOT MY POSTS!", crap.
As I said, you don't think for one second "maybe he has a point... maybe I am immature, maybe I am jumping into things too quickly... stupidly... and I don't even have a decent grasp on myself". How can you be in a relationship with someone, how can you care for someone else, and be a life partner, when you don't know where you, yourself, stands? A relationship is comprised of two people that alone are fully capable and stable, but enjoy each other and love each other. To love others, to fully understand and be capable, you have to be able to know where you yourself stand. Something you clearly do not have.
But this is just flaming according to you. Nothing I say has merit, nothing I say has any weight, because YOU DISAGREE only because you are the subject matter. Look at it this way. Take someone you know, who acts unstably, lashes out all the time, and has no real basis of anything. Now what if that person said "I'm getting married!" You'd instantly think "wow you are stupid". I mean, I know you do it already. Celebrities, gossip, past friends, friends of friends, family members... You're that person now. If you want to get married, then fine, that's you, but logically speaking, you're acting like an idiot.
PS: Ring + letter... HORRIBLE WAY TO PROPOSE.
Pryon. You're an elitist bastard who likes to talk down to everyone. You like to talk about me as if I'm an immature child, while you're just a pathetic bully who likes to come down on people for not adhering to your high-and-mighty standards.
And as I stated, you ever insult my girl again, and God have mercy on you because I won't.